I have blogged a little on faith before but do feel now that a repetition is in order as some time as passed since my diagnosis – things are indeed dynamic and it’s already been 3 years and 8 months although the initial dismal mean time was 12 – 14 months. I can actually feel and correlate how my body deteriorates as the disease progresses. 3 years ago I could still run 5km in under 25 minutes regularly but now 1 single flight of stairs is a huge affair. But I have to remain grateful, thankful and learn to trust and have faith. I sometimes take things & people for granted – I sincerely ask for God’s foregiveess.
Now, faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Heb 11:1 NASB. We often stop here and start ‘believing’ words alone without action – possibly continually praying for a good outcome. The danger here is to ‘claim’ on this promise and thinking that verse 1 alone is a ‘magic bullet’ if we pray hard enough – ‘afterall with God all things are possible’. So when things don’t come our way, or so it seems that God is not really listening we may be misled to thing that we do not have enough faith. Perhaps the reason is simply – trust & patience that requires time. If we read about Abel, Caine, Enoch, Noah, Moses & Abraham – a lot of time passed before God fulfilled his promises and honors his covenant.
So here is a quick answer when we still feel that God is absent & silent in our prayers. Read verse 13 of the same chapter! It was often not an ‘immediate’ wham bam cure / miracle / outcome. More often than not, it takes time to keep the faith & find the answer.
All these people died still believing what God had promised them. They did not receive what was promised, but they saw it all from a distance and welcomed it. They agreed that they were foreigners and nomads here on earth. Heb 11:13 NLT
Here I am reminded that the Old Testament saints were saved through faith (& not works as we are often mislead to think). Read Hebrews 11 again – it has always been through faith! Noah was warned about things not seen while Abraham lived as a foreigner in the promised land without understanding where he was going.
Actually, we learn and are assured in verse 2.
As I continue to wear down physically & emotionally, I try my best to be courageous, strong, hopefuly, trusting in our Lord Jesus and clinging on to my faith.
And yes, it is difficult.
References & credit: While several references were used in this page, I used Chapter 25 & 6 of Bible.org extensively in my reading.
— Bible.org Chap 25: Is Chapter 11 Right For You? (Hebrews 11:1-6)
— Bible.org Chap 26: Faith and Failure or What Happened to the Skeletons in the Patriarchal Closet? (Hebrews 11:7-12)
— Credit: Bob Deffinbaugh